I think I am so good in scheming and always so good at hiding my mistakes.
Not gonna say what I did but I can say that they are not the good ones..LOL
Even though honesty is something we should always uphold, but being devious undeniably a good way for survival. If you are not tricky enough, others will just simply take advantages on you.
But dont have to worry if you are my friends, I am referring this strangers or people who are not related to me.
I always think I am good in managing my own emotions but apparently I was wrong. I was so emotional that I was freaked out by myself! I refused to talk to anyone, hang out with friend and even cried for no reasons. I guess I was depressing myself too much and my brain can no longer handle it! Too much pressures can result in death!!lol
Anyways, this no longer troubles me because I am in good mood again. I just need something so that I can express all the unpleasant feelings that are inside me! And I found it last night! yay!
This will be the first real post after abandoning my blog for ages.
Nothing much changed except summer’s gone and replaced by the chilly fall.
And maybe because of the gloomy weather, I am always in the moody mode. The feeling of loneliness is haunting me like never before. There is no excitements, and all the laughter I used to have were already long disappeared.
Just like the shadow, my heart is alone without anyone’s companion.
Missing my family and friends in Malaysia like crazy. But waiting for the reunion is like waiting for the bus that always takes forever. My heart will always be in real pain within this two and half year before I get to go home.
My tears are falling just like the falling leaves. Nobody can really understand the darkness that is well hidden deep inside my heart.
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Not to forget my photo even though this is not a happy post.
One customer just made my day today.
As a consumer myself, I always try my best to meet all their needs. And today, there was this customer who wish to substitute his food with other stuff, so I helped him to get the best deal since I don’t want them paying for nothing. As a result, he appreciates it so much.
While paying for his food, he asked me: Did you guys get the tips?
I told him that we got 70% percent and the other 30% goes to the kitchen. So he was like: Ohhh….that’s not fair and thanks telling me.
Before he left, he took a 20dollars note from his wallet and gives it to me. I was surprised because he is the first customer who did this.
Even though it’s not THAT much, but his intention is the best thing ever! And this whole time, I was hoping every customers would at least satisfied with my service and it’s proven today.
Anyways, I am happy~ 
I believe everyone has their very own first time in doing everything. Even though I couldn’t remember everything that’s related with my first time, but some of them made quite remarkable impressions in my mind.
1. First fast food I had
Like I said, I am from a poor family. So, even eating fast food is like the most impossible thing to achieve while I was kid. However, my dad brought my little brother and I to this restaurant called SugarBun in Saberkas Plaze, Kuching.
I think this fast food chain store is only available in East Malaysia, Brunei and Bangladesh. So, a lot of you might not heard it before. My dad bought us french fries and 2 hamburgers. I think that’s one the happiest things ever happened in my life.
2. My very first birthday cake
Again, poor people don’t celebrate their birthday that occasionally. If I am not wrong, I was around 5-6 years old that time. Before that, my parent never celebrates my birthday. I remember that I was sleeping and they woke me up with candles lit on an icing cake which look something like this!Icing cakes back in those days look less attractive and delicious but more fattening~
I guess this is also one of the happiest moments too because my 5th sister, Shanny, she doesn’t like me standing beside her with her birthday cake therefore keep staring fiercely at me every time I do that. Haha
3. First cellphone
I was using this little cute mini Panasonic GD55 back in 5 years ago!
Isn’t it cute?? So small and portable~ I think this is also my favourite phones of all time. Phones nowadays are just too over functioned which sometimes useless and such a waste of money. Back in school time, I was the first one to bring a phone to school in my class. Right after I started doing it, my classmates starting to bring theirs as well. There was one time when we were having an exam and one of the students cellphone rang, but everybody was so cooperative and kept convincing the teacher that the sounds is from the outside of the classroom. Since we are the top class, the teacher was like:"Okay…" even though we know she is not fooled.
4. First dance performance
I like dancing alot ever since I was a kid. I started dancing when I was 11 and only stopped because I have to study in Canada. However, I am not the best dancer due to the limited resources. My first song I dance to is 阿里山的姑娘 which is a song to extol the mightiness of 阿里山in Taiwan. My first performance took place at the Kuching food fair festival where you can find all sorts of local food there.
5. First computer game
My eldest sister got herself a computer while I was 12 years old. Guess what I played? Yea right, it’s pacman! Even though it’s the first computer, my sister never intended to teach me how to use it because she is bloodily selfish and no one could ever touches her computer! However, because of her selfishness, her computer crashed not long after that! Haha, served her right! 
I highly doubt that you NEVER played this game. It’s still my favourite game to play while I am bored as hell.
6. My first love minus my family(gosh, I am having goosebumps here!)
I never truly fall in love with anyone before this. And I used to think relationship is just something short and just for the sake of fun. But, after I met him, my opinions changed. And here I announce….An Jae Kiun~
Cute cute ^__^
Everyone is expected to respect or sometimes follows the cultures when you are in overseas. However, sometimes, they are completely out of sense!
First of all, in Western countries, you are not supposed to use an umbrella even though the sun shines like crazy. Instead, you are supposed to get freckles and dark spots because of the frequent sun exposures! This incident happened few days ago while I was on the way walking for groceries shopping. While waiting for the Korean to get stuff from there store,there was this lady who was sitting on the stairs and smoking. After she saw me with my cute little yellow umbrealla, she was like shaking her head and said: " An umbrella? Tsk tsk tsk…".
What?? She sounded like I was doing something illegal or something that is not approved by the society! It’s just fcking using an umbrella? Why is that bothering you sooo much? I bet she must had an unhappy marriage or domestic violence that make her so grumpy!
Secondly, Canadians don’t wash their assholes with water and body shampoo or soap. Wash I mean sticking your finger into your asshole making sure there is no leftover poop stuck in between the wrinkles thingy while showering LOL! All they need is just a few pieces of rough toilet paper to scrub away the poop. But who knows there will be some leftover poop that’s not being cleaned by the previous act? Imagine the bacteria from the poop spreading all over your body…Eww…
According to them, straight guys should never ever stick anything inside the assholes because it’s totally GAY. HAHAHA…Come on people, it’s only part of the personal hygienic cares.
Thirdly, Western people eat processed food more than naturally produced food! If you walk into a supermarket, there will be more processed food than fresh vegetables or meat! Back in Malaysia, we can get our fresh vegetables and meat from the pasar. Sadly, there is no such thing as "pasar" here. Therefore, it’s hard to stay fit and healthy while you are in Western countries.
Fourthly, they don’t cook food with fire! I guess it’s for safety reason, so every households here uses electric stove which is more environmental friendly. Nevertheless, food cooked using electric stove sucks!
Finally, the best culture of all time, they tip people like crazy! As you know, I am now working in a sushi restaurant. So far, almost every customer I served tipped me. Sadly, since I am still a trainee, I don’t get to collect them at all!!! But according to the owner, I will soon become the regular waitress where the tips will belong to me~ Yay.
Maybe Chin Sem was right saying I post my photo in EVERY single post! LOL
I am tired as hell. But this is only the beginning because as time goes by, there are more for us to worry about.
Even though life is full with shit sometimes, but being appreciative can make sure we feel contented thus happy.
There are people who always complain how suck their lives are, and how bad they want to change it. Please be advised that, there are more people suffer more than you do.
Appearance is not the only thing that counts in this world, but sadly, the importance of it is overrated. For example, the sushi restaurant that I am working with right now will only hire people who are at least not bad looking. Because of this stupid trend, more and more people are losing their confidence and overlook the rest which could be more advantageous such as intelligence.
I am not a good looking person myself but I always try my best to look good, even though it’s not considered breath taking beauty. And hell yeah, you can change the way you look by just having an expensive haircut or nice outfit. So why bother by it? Just get over it and earn more money, that’s simple~
And what’s more important than the love and cares given by the people around you? Isn’t that more meaningful than just simply looking good? Not to forget that beauty is in the eye of beholder. Even though you are not approved by others, but your friends and family will always think you as the BEST!!
Shit, I am not good in arguing but I just want to make a point here. I hope you can understand.
Same old looking me.
I wonder why there are people who are just tooooo free to blabber about stuff that aren’t even their business! Don’t they know how to respect someone’s privacy?! So fun for you to intrude and acting like such a big jerk huh? I guess you have no life then. I curse you to stay sucks for the rest of your life!
And you think it’s fun to bully someone who is always nice to you? Nice things don’t stay long if you don’t know how to appreciate them. Ok, I think I am done being nice for this whole time! This is what you will get as consuquence for being such a smart ass and never know when to stop being one!
You moron! Don’t act like you know me like REAL well! You are just another fucker who doesn’t feel ashamed for intruding other’s privacy! Be a grown up please! I am sick of people who are always act childishly and pretend that they know everything!
ARRGHHHH!!!! You have no rights to comment upon my life and fuck off from it you goddamn pathetic creature!@3!#%6
You might not be an animal lover, but you don’t have to be one to stop animal cruelty! People are just too stupid to think and therefore they abuse animals that are harmless. I wonder why there are so many retards being born and to waste the resources on this earth. All they know is to cause pains and sufferings towards the other creatures!
I wish I dont have to keep the guy’s identity confidential! Urghh!
Shit, I know I am too weak and have inadequate resources to raise the awareness of the people towards this issue. Because I am not a vet, so I cant provide any medical services. And I am not a politician as well to tell my people to start believing in something. Sigh, I seriously hope I can do more just to help those poor little creatures!
Therefore, in order to do the least I could, I will try to donate some money for a foundation, The Sarawak Society for the Prevention of Cruelty to Animal(SSPCA), that is set up to help those creatures. Go to the website if you want to know more, and I think the organization is worldwide base. And good news is, Jin and Siew already promised to donate! I am sooo going to make the amount grows and transfer it back to Rachz.
Thanks Rachz a lot for motivating me in deciding to make a donation. She is a "new" cat lovers but already starting to work hard on preventing animal cruelty. She is going to set up a donation box in Swinburne’s library and hope Kuching Swinburnians can be more supportive!
And for me, certainly I am a cat lover! I even cried for cats which is not even my pet. And I would rather cry for a cat being abused than people being killed by some random reasons!
And here are some photos of my Bumiao, my beloved pet, she passed away after ran down by a stupid driver. I cried 4 hours upon her leaving.
p/s:not my face. I know I look different.
Omg…It’s been more than 3 years now. But still, I feel sad by just looking at these photos. These are the only photos I got because my retarded brother serviced the computer without saving and thus all the photos were gone!
Please…anyone who is interested to help, even though it’s only 10 dollars or less than that…you can make a HUGE different of these animals’ lives. I can transfer the money back together with mine…God, please tell me there are people who are willing to do that.
Few days ago, I was in a drug store and buying stuff. Suddenly, a mid-year guy approached and asked: "Do you know where can I find wax stripes?"
So, I showed him where to get and I was like: Hmm..I wonder why a guy like him need wax stripes anyways? To wax his pubic hair??lol
And while he was looking and inspecting at those boxes, he looked up at me and asked: Is this brand good? My daughter wanted me to get her one. She uses this to wax her unibrow and it looks real good.
Interesting…dad getting his daughter a box of wax stripes so that she can wax her brow or whatever hair just to impress her boyfriend and to have sex with him…Ooppss, maybe this is not true but who cares? Dad getting personal toiletries for his daughter?Blah
This will never happened in Eastern countries, or at least Malaysia perhaps? My dad doesn’t even know my age or my birthday! And I doubted that he knows I started having my period now or hair growing at my butt! LOL
But that doesn’t means he gives no love to me. It’s just that this is not our culture or values. We believe in respecting the elders instead of asking them to buy some pads or tampons. We believe in getting a job so that we can support our parents lives rather than asking them to pay for our university tuition fees so that you can club for the whole night and have sex with guys or girls. And I think it’s funny when someone said: sending your girl to a college or university means giving them more opportunities to have more sex!
I am not saying you should stop sending your kids to university and asking them to work just to stop this from happening. But, DAMN! Parents nowadays are being too lenient with their own children. The money for toys or games are enough for me to buy a car! Stop spending so much on something that wont bring you any better! I will rather invest them in some kind investment so that I can have money to support myself other than being kicked around among my kids when I am too old and pee on myself. Nonetheless, I don’t think I will have a lot of them~
Ok, maybe there are advantages too for having a close or friends-alike relationship with your dad. But I can’t think of any… Hmm…let see, if my daddy is like a friend for me, we could hang out as friends? LOL
I guess enough with this nonsense. Tata~
